My Man

MY MAN

The Man my husband is

Never comes very easy

Even when life's a friz

He stands ground to be cheesy

His love never fails, vanishes, or is put on the line

His love is so pure and true 

He is one in all circumstances to make all feel just fine

Christian always gets us thru

He is my stars, my moon, my sun

He is everything intended from above

I have never lost in life, only won!

Cause this man, my husband is full of LOVE!

We may have hard times wondering if I'll make it

My man has no doubt of His Divine plans 

So yes I struggle thru my health trying not to throw a fit

Cause you see, my husband Christian is my #1 fan!

So I never want to let my man down

If our big bulging sun should rise 

Or it is ghastly pouring rain all over town

We always live in love, not lies

Christian we live in a crazy world you and me

But there isn't a moment I'd ever erase

You are a man filled with our love, hope, and reality 

You my love I'll never lose but continue to chase!

Let's say good bye to Philly we won't be back 'round

Nor is Phoenix going to be our next town

Minnesota was so fun and I'll miss it forever

But let's keep trying Florida in hopes of moving never

As for you are my sunshine anywhere we go

You are my backbone in ragged times

There isn't one other soul I'd ever love like you- so

Let's sit on our back porch and listen to our chimes

You are my love, fresh air, reason I breathe 

Never think twice about the love I have in thee

You are my wants, needs, desires- my Everything!

Let's show the world that true love is more than Something!!!

I love you Christian Siebens,

Your less brain wife,

Early in the morning,

Heather (Hetty) Siebens

Your Satellite Princess

By Hetty Siebens 2015 ©

Let's Grow Old

Let's Grow Old... for Christian Siebens 7/4/04

I've got great dedication

to the best man there is

life sure seems it's ending

on a vast burning bridge

For it just may seem impossible

but you need to hold on tight

that bridge that feels it's coming down

could be the one that gives us light!

Just look beyond all our problems

look toward the coming years

for I'm tired of waiting for flawlessness

continuing that would cause me tears

The world is full of emptiness

if it doesn't contain love

It captured us and held us close

we were guided from above

We all need to learn to give love

need to learn to receive

for if our love doesn't have both

our life together will not breathe

We need passion

We need faith

We need commitment

but for God's dear sake...

We need each other's hand

down every winding road

life's weather can get harsh

and fearful stories could be told

We have to stay strong

do not collapse, do not fold

for you and I are worth it all

we're both fearless, we're both bold

So much in my life, broke my heart

but meeting you, put me back at start

a new breath of life, which starts a new living

full of sweet love and excitement we're giving

So hold on tight with me now

For I can't wait to mold

you quench my thirst as we are young

We'll hold strong while we grow old

I love you Christian 

Hetty Siebens 2004 ©

I Can Feel

I can feel it the pain that won't go away

I can feel it the illness that wishes to stay 

I can feel it the misery it brings to my life

I can feel it wanting to exit on so much strife

I can feel it through all of my excruciating pains

I can feel it hurts so bad like I'm wrapped in chains

I can feel it in the morning but worse at night

I can feel it has brutal anger with my body it fights

I can feel it laying in my peaceful bed

I can feel it is going to my head

I can feel it throbbing walking around

I can feel it make me silent and not make a sound

I can feel it rule me showing me whose in charge

I can feel it pound so bad you'd think all would be large

I can feel it burn and combust right thru my skin

I can feel my heart harden letting no one in

I can feel this altering my whole entire life

I can feel warped as a bad mom, friend, wife

I can feel there are no answers so why should I even try?

I can feel that my heart hurts so much and doesn't want to cry

I can feel I've interrupted lives with sorrow and complaints 

I can feel I have been so pointless unable to do new paints

I can feel I shouldn't be here and you all should live life

I can feel you'd do better without me as I cause so much strife

I can feel this poem coming to a close

I can feel I really just need to doze.....

I can feel I just wish it was forever for you

I can feel then you two without me would be able to do

I can feel glad you could do so much without my presence here

I can feel none of this would happen without us both dear

I can feel though my engine has broken down

I can feel I need far far away from this town

I can feel I love you always

I can feel He has plans for your days

I can feel I was a benefit to bring such an angelic one

I can say my duty is complete and all my deeds here are done

I can feel you are a perfect dad

I can feel that doesn't make me mad

I can feel she delights everytime you are together 

I can feel you better do this for me forever 

I love you Christian 

by Hetty Siebens 2015 ©

The Prize of Life

I want to be free of all that holds me down

Cause right now all I feel is I'm gonna drown

One brain surgery to a second then to a third

The excruciating pain all caused not all heard

Heard how it changed my life put much on hold

Every day I'd wake in pain just praying I could fold

The number of doctors seen you'd hope for just one clue

But from state to state not one doctor knew what to do

That third brain surgery was very much my choice

I was grateful that my Mayo doctors heard my little voice

But hardheaded me goes in fearless and strong

I should have understood more to not do so much wrong

I am tough Heather wanting every negative part out

Had they done this brain surgery asleep I sure would have pout

I wanted to feel the wrong areas and guide them to cut out

No matter the tough guidance I gave would little me shout

I wanted every misfiring part to be out of my life

Never did I know toughing it out would cause such strife

I wish I could say the pain all ended there

But wow since then I've had so much to bare

I feel like a vegetable, one no one likes

As my EEG's keep showing such beautiful spikes

The body pain I thought was atrocious back in 2010

Doesn't compare to the pain this town has given

We live on the bulging beach that has so many shells

But what good is that to me when daily I feel in hell

I would love to see that firing sun rise

Before it all hits hard and I don't get that prize

The prize of life

The Prize of Love

Prize to conquer strife

Prize all from up Above

I pray this torment ends one day

Maybe I can help others not to fray

But as this keeps churning I feel hopeless

So I pray that it heals and this is not endless

You all mean so much to me

You all bring me so much glee

I am one quiet source I say

I sure hope to change that one day

Bless you all for your love and care

Without it not a part of me would ever dare

Dare to seek wellness to thank all of you

To be well and grateful for all that you do!

Blessings to all....

Heather/Hetty Siebens November 2015 ©

Life is so Trying

The pain is atrocious

Wondering why you

It makes you ferocious 

Not knowing what to do

You listen to everyone 

So positive with no clue

Your pain makes you so done

No diagnosis is true

You hang onto tough life

Like a monkey on a tree

Years lived of endless strife

But not one soul can see

All you endure barely hanging onto your breath

All Family continue whether I'm here or diminished 

Does not one get my choice between life or death

Should this warped monkey continue when all seems finished

The sun comes up and the sun goes down

Such beauty out there that I cannot enjoy

Street lights and fun times I don't see down town

It feels like all against me, I am just a ploy

One illness leads to next one and 

Pain never ceases thinking it can stay

I wish I could rid it all with a majestic hand

Instead all trials worsen on this sunny day

I am one silent soul unsure what to say

The trials I've endured have continued for years

I feel like doctors are clueless and I'm just their clay

So I continue in distress, hopeless with endless tears

Life is so trying

Confusing what to do

Leaves one just crying

I bet many of you feel this too

I lift you all up

As I remain deep down

Take our Masters cup

I will remain with a bitter frown

Endless painful Heather/Hetty

Love to you all.

By Hetty Siebens 2015 ©

Never Falter

When we came upon one another

Not knowing each other's dreams

We thought we'd be closer than a brother

But much closer we grew it seems

We'd travel places giggling in love

Never knowing tough times to come

We hung on so tight, trusting Him Above

Searching for signs knowing He'd send some

Never was a tough moment

Not worth the risk

The risk of you, the risk of me

The risk of us so meant to be

We hung on tight and displayed love

A love that couldn't fade

Today where we are is incredible, so pure

Not one piece of this would I trade

Your eyes focus so deep

But your heart wins the prize

Our love is rich, so far from cheap

As we hold one another in one size

We will never falter, we will never fail

You and I brought together as one

Let's dream, let's dance, let's go for a sail

As for you and I, in love, are never done

Never was a tough moment

Not worth the risk

The risk of you, the risk of me

The risk of us so meant to be

We hung on tight and displayed love

A love that couldn't fade

Today where we are is incredible, so pure

Not one piece of this would I trade

Be my man forevermore

I will be your wife

I love when you walk thru our front door

That my love, my man, completes my life.

I love you Christian Siebens

Hope this means something....

By Hetty Siebens Nov 11, 2015 ©

December Birthday

December 15, 1976 - little birth of little ol me! Petoskey, MI

December Month Dear Jesus....

By Hetty/Heather Siebens

How bout you- 

let me able to use my back and walk

How bout you-

give me strength to be willing to talk

How bout you-

get my meds right and calm my body down

How bout you-

give me desire and strength to shop our little town

How bout you-

make all appointments made before my birthday

How bout you-

have me well to decorate, not just be in the way

How bout you-

keep my faith brightly shining thru all chaotic times

How bout you-

make sure I don't freak in pain waiting in the lines

How bout you-

my birthday month, bless me with my prayers

How bout you-

my birthday month, you're way more Christ's to be fair

How bout you- 

understand , my birthday month, you brought us so much joy

How bout you-

December, this month is for Jesus not just all these toys

How bout you-

dear birthday month, remind me each and every day

How bout you-

sweet December birthday month, remind me to pray

How bout you-

awesome December, realize what you've done for us

How bout you-

lively December just know I will try not to fus

How bout you-

darling December realize who used you to come and save our lives

How bout you-

precious December realize our Lord doesn't cut our promised ties

How bout you- 

December realize you've brought me so much glee

How bout you- 

December, I just know you and I were meant to be! 

I love you sweet Jesus, thank You for December, YOUR birth, and thank You for mine in that month too!!!! December, a wonderful month!! Amen!

December 15, 2015 ©

Hetty/Heather Siebens @AliveinMe  

+Heather Siebens (Hetty)