He Saw My Dark, He Saw My Light

 

There was always this bump in the Siebens Road

Wanna hear stories why and truth to be told?

I had so many rough parts about me hard to understand

But the man I adored kept reaching for my hand

He saw my dark, he saw my light, he saw my in-between 

What kind of man wants that, loves that, somehow won't be mean?

It was so hard to understand that I actually had a true love

I was used to a cruel temperament that led way past just a shove

When my ex saw my dark he loved to drag it down

My baby today lights me up and cannot even stand a frown

Just the stories of what I endured hurt my mans heart 

That is such true love--to love so deep even when apart

I chose our wedding date to rid of the past date

The negative 10/6/02 was, ex beating me full of hate

We took that hatred date and conquered all the negative

Bringing you and I together (10/6/07) for as long as we both shall live

He's been thru too many brain surgeries with me than most ever will

I always wished my epilepsy would have calmed from a simple pill

I like to complicate and humor things up for my stud

Or I'd feel like a failure somehow stuck in the mud

But you never led me to feel complicated

You never came across like my stories were fabricated

You always stayed strong and with me thru all

Somehow thru Him you knew we'd never fall

I love you dear Christian

you are my light & night and shining armor !

Let's debate another move to become a sweet farmer

I love you dear Christian! 

My rock!

Happy almost 13th anniversary !!!!!! Closer and closer !!! It is almost here!!!! 

 

Our Month of CHRISTmas

Our Month of CHRISTmas ©️

By Hetty J Siebens 12/21/19 💜

We have just a little change CHRISTmas time this year

It’s usually you, me & precious Tory full of awesome cheer. 

But this year it’s just you and me darling one

Hey but that’s ok thru Him we have so much fun 

We have joy all year round

Once were lost-now are found

He brought us together to have and keep trust

Love for each other, love for our Savior is a must 

He formed and blessed our family helping each of us grow

Sharing love between us thru the years always to know

Our love is strong and mighty, it’s always very true

It’s so special near and far-constant gift from me to you

Christ’s light is shining intensely 

Thru both you and me

Sick or well, rich or poor -He continues blazing truth from sea to shining sea

I am blessed He guided us together and to never be apart 

He had me fall in love with you handing over to you my heart 

I’ll always thank God for you my love

Thru Christ you are like a morning dove

So beautiful, peaceful and true 

This Christmas I’m blessed to be with you!

I love you so dear Christian, never will we part

Moments we aren’t together you are within my heart 

You are my one and only and never shall we end

Together we’re the perfect red wine, with God the perfect blend!

Christmas in your arms baby truly brings me glee

Whether looking out at the snow or laying by the pool with me

We will always have a blast in any state we live

As long as we have one another’s love to continue to give. 

I loved you so much this whole passing year 

But a new one to come I can only love you more dear 

You are so precious, together we are so strong 

With our dear Lord Jesus we will continue together so long 

Peace, love, comfort, joy, ever lasting love 

Emmanuel, Prince of Peace, King of Kings from up above 

His love for us is never-ending and unexplainable 

His life lived, our lives He made are true-so far from a fable.

I am endlessly thankful to God He formed us as one 

He knew in life, in faith neither one of us were done 

I loved you from day one and every day to follow

Life with you never gives me much time to wallow. 

Thank you for always accepting me with all my issues 

Just hearing my stories in life most people need tissues

But sticking it out with me in true love and care

You are one of a kind to ever take such a dare 

I loved you yesterday I love you today I love you so much tomorrow 

Never do you bring me sorrow

Thank you so much for being my man for life

Thank you for asking little ol me to be your wife!!! 

I love you precious Christian. 

Sorry this poem is all choppy. I started it off and on since after Thanksgiving. My brain has just been so fuzzy. Sorry. Try to enjoy!!!! 💜🙏🏼🦋🎄❤️❄️

Love,

Little ol Hetty/Heather 💜💚

For You My Strong Hold

For You My Strong Hold

Oh what a year we both have endured...

A Few long years when we really look back

Our precious daughter has grown so fast and matured

It is so hard to think that one day she'll ask us to help her pack

You have been there for me almost every tragedy in health I'd face

You'd hold me tight, love me close, give up work to be with me

Your love is so beautiful thru our Lord-thru Him you've learned a lot of amazing grace

We have had some tough times, our dear Lord fills us with joy and glee

He is always there during all ups and downs on which decisions to make

You keep your faith and calmness no matter how the other person may be

He never leaves nor keeps secrets on which choice to make if and when business is at stake

No matter the issues in work or in private, you keep so calm, more people should see!

You my love have dealt with so much with epileptic me

You dealt with the multiple brain surgeries, medication overdoses, even grand mals

Poor sweet you had more hope that I'd be completely seizure free

But instead I was not yet; you were always positive to catch my falls

You have always been my strong hold, not embarrassed of this illness

You are a sexy, hot, loving, husband and father to my baby forever more we say

You have always been the one true love of my life, my lifetime lover I must confess

With others before you I'd have to have breaks, couldn't take them 24/7, with you I want you everyday, all day

For life

I love you Christian Siebens

My One True North

Love,

Hetty Siebens

December 10, 2018

YOU??????

YOU!!!!!!

There was this miracle man I met by chance

Met me thru a mutual friend in some sort of trance

A connection I had never had, not  like that ever before 

Never once would I think he'd open his door

This hot man let me in in so many levels

He barely knew me I could've been the devil

But his heart and trust were so sincere

Not a day goes by that I'm not grateful I'm here

He is so intellectual yet so loving too

So full of humor you don't know what to do

He is a little bit of everything and a tad bit more

Amazes me all in one person what God has in store

He is a miracle friend, leader, amazing husband and dad

Many see his gifts wishing he was one they had

You'd think he would be snobby, self centered of his life

Instead he cares deeply about his family, friends not to be in strife

We all go thru trials, tough fazes over struggles of time

Christian is the man during that who'd give his last dime

Which is why over time this man is blessed

Our Lord has never seen one give it all his best

You Sir Christian are a gift to me

You make me smile but my negative flee

You bring me so much joy I hadn't  seen in ages

I'll come out of my cage since you calmed the rages

You are dear

Your are precious 

You are everything one wants and needs

You are fine 

You are brilliant 

You are sexier beyond belief

But I can take this intense work chat

At least we know we're real where we are at

You are one to die for, you are one to live for

Thru life I'll see us live that way, my life worth so much more

You!!!

I love you... 

Heather 

June 2017 by Hetty Siebens 😘

Savin' Me

Savin' Me

His Savin' me wasn't just luck

Wasn't His choice thru the muck

His plans were brilliant, blazing on fire

On fire for Him thru disastrous mire

He was always there the days I didn't believe

Believe of a heaven or Him took long to achieve

I denied Him for selfish reasons, that all pertained to me

His heaven I'd mock was not like mine that I'd rather see

My heaven then, so determined I'd say

Consisted of packed freeways, backed up all day

My "place" had beaches, radio and smog

Not then did I see The Truth, living in my own fog

Many tragedies shook me hard and emotionally deep

But I didn't know my God would chose me one to keep

I rolled my tiny car three times back in 99'

Doing all the wrong but I stepped out just fine

Thanked "whoever" was out there for my catastrophe

I gathered my love for California, drove to the blue sea

Still in my heart was selfishness, against to better things

Against the good, for the odds, the odds lovers would bring

But thru the years that followed

I was hit hard and just wallowed

In self pity and remorse

My ex held me down in force

He just shook and quivered

Knowing the pain to be delivered

His heart turned colder; shutting our kids feelings out

Then one fist to another, he beat me til' I'd shout

That day began the change of me

Confused, overdosing, I bent on my knees

Pleading to who I heard about a long time ago

To love and accept my failures so that I could show

Show how amazing life can be

Living thru tough times able to see

The amazing work He has done all my blessed life

Guiding me not to pop more pills, or ever use a knife

Showed me which road was the only and the best

If troubled times came, turn to Him for some rest

He would take my tragic times that were deep in my soul

He'd take it on with trust and love, with True Heaven my true goal

He changed my life completely, answered so many deep prayers

My Lord is with me always full of love, fighting Satan with all dares

My child praised Him very young, while I was still seeking His love

He placed my angel in my life for love and to seek Him up Above

My light is flaming Lord,

Flaming just for You

My life is flaming dear Jesus

Not one could take me from You

Praise you today!

Praise you tomorrow!

Praise you still thru any sorrow!

You're full of faithfulness, love and peace

Again I will repeat...

You're full of faithfulness, love and amazing peace

A love so alive and patient, a love that will not cease

So I close with You to say

You never leave me astray

Hard times aren't in Your plans

Your filled with Your Will; not with mans

Thank You for fighting for me too

As many in this life often won't do

Holding me close, hugging me tight

You never let me out of Your sight

Thank you Jesus....

Hetty Siebens, 2012

Cure

Tragic times led to amazing blessings as I held tight onto Christ!


Cure

Life sure can get complex,
if you just let it so.
With every wilting flower,
a healthy one will grow.

It started out so simple
just one pill led to two;
but with age seizures angered
and I didn't know what to do.

They changed so fiercely overnight,
I dared not tell a soul.
I just played pretend they didn't exist;
prayed I wouldn't pay a toll.

Then, with a gift from God came happiness,
everything felt just right!
Then came a twist, a jab, of hopelessness!
It's now hard to sleep at night.

For what was managed then, grew and grew.
Not one in that town could believe -
that the dilemmas with me are for real, are true.
So with all of that - my child and I had to leave.

What may have seemed atrocious
what may have seemed unjust;
all happened for a purpose
this happened, now I must

I must be honest
I must be well
I must be focused
Dear God I'll tell . . .

I'll tell You how shocking life can be!
I'll tell you I'm tired, no energy!
Seizures aren't controlled by medication for me;
They're controlled by the faith in our Lord, I NOW see!

Faith in Christ is the actual cure;
even when I must take pills.
Cause with all my problems and issues I endure;
with His love there's no trial, mountain, no hills!

So I praise Him today with all my heart,
my heart has so much to give!
Without Him I'm not sure where I'd be
He's shown me all more reason to live!

By Hetty Siebens © 2004