For You My Strong Hold

For You My Strong Hold

Oh what a year we both have endured...

A Few long years when we really look back

Our precious daughter has grown so fast and matured

It is so hard to think that one day she'll ask us to help her pack

You have been there for me almost every tragedy in health I'd face

You'd hold me tight, love me close, give up work to be with me

Your love is so beautiful thru our Lord-thru Him you've learned a lot of amazing grace

We have had some tough times, our dear Lord fills us with joy and glee

He is always there during all ups and downs on which decisions to make

You keep your faith and calmness no matter how the other person may be

He never leaves nor keeps secrets on which choice to make if and when business is at stake

No matter the issues in work or in private, you keep so calm, more people should see!

You my love have dealt with so much with epileptic me

You dealt with the multiple brain surgeries, medication overdoses, even grand mals

Poor sweet you had more hope that I'd be completely seizure free

But instead I was not yet; you were always positive to catch my falls

You have always been my strong hold, not embarrassed of this illness

You are a sexy, hot, loving, husband and father to my baby forever more we say

You have always been the one true love of my life, my lifetime lover I must confess

With others before you I'd have to have breaks, couldn't take them 24/7, with you I want you everyday, all day

For life

I love you Christian Siebens

My One True North

Love,

Hetty Siebens

December 10, 2018

Savin' Me

Savin' Me

His Savin' me wasn't just luck

Wasn't His choice thru the muck

His plans were brilliant, blazing on fire

On fire for Him thru disastrous mire

He was always there the days I didn't believe

Believe of a heaven or Him took long to achieve

I denied Him for selfish reasons, that all pertained to me

His heaven I'd mock was not like mine that I'd rather see

My heaven then, so determined I'd say

Consisted of packed freeways, backed up all day

My "place" had beaches, radio and smog

Not then did I see The Truth, living in my own fog

Many tragedies shook me hard and emotionally deep

But I didn't know my God would chose me one to keep

I rolled my tiny car three times back in 99'

Doing all the wrong but I stepped out just fine

Thanked "whoever" was out there for my catastrophe

I gathered my love for California, drove to the blue sea

Still in my heart was selfishness, against to better things

Against the good, for the odds, the odds lovers would bring

But thru the years that followed

I was hit hard and just wallowed

In self pity and remorse

My ex held me down in force

He just shook and quivered

Knowing the pain to be delivered

His heart turned colder; shutting our kids feelings out

Then one fist to another, he beat me til' I'd shout

That day began the change of me

Confused, overdosing, I bent on my knees

Pleading to who I heard about a long time ago

To love and accept my failures so that I could show

Show how amazing life can be

Living thru tough times able to see

The amazing work He has done all my blessed life

Guiding me not to pop more pills, or ever use a knife

Showed me which road was the only and the best

If troubled times came, turn to Him for some rest

He would take my tragic times that were deep in my soul

He'd take it on with trust and love, with True Heaven my true goal

He changed my life completely, answered so many deep prayers

My Lord is with me always full of love, fighting Satan with all dares

My child praised Him very young, while I was still seeking His love

He placed my angel in my life for love and to seek Him up Above

My light is flaming Lord,

Flaming just for You

My life is flaming dear Jesus

Not one could take me from You

Praise you today!

Praise you tomorrow!

Praise you still thru any sorrow!

You're full of faithfulness, love and peace

Again I will repeat...

You're full of faithfulness, love and amazing peace

A love so alive and patient, a love that will not cease

So I close with You to say

You never leave me astray

Hard times aren't in Your plans

Your filled with Your Will; not with mans

Thank You for fighting for me too

As many in this life often won't do

Holding me close, hugging me tight

You never let me out of Your sight

Thank you Jesus....

Hetty Siebens, 2012

My Love Letter

You're still here precious

Even when I may distress 

Everything in my life

Both amazing or full of strife

You're still my rock, still my soul

When I'm negative and letting go...

Letting go of all my good...

Turning around when I know I should...

I should reach out my arms and cry to you

Tell you my feelings, not just the few I do

I chase after God with you in my heart

How can one let it get so far?

Strife will never go far

Never flee away from doubt

Strife will never go far

With the love I couldn't live without

It Will Never Go Far

You are my love

You fill me full of it

You are my love, MY love

Never will we quit

You though dear, see my good and bad

My negative in life I never knew I had

You see my soul inside, in love with my light and dark

You see thru it all, forgiving without giving it a mark

I can be most happy, sad, or even just loss of zest

Hard times made life edgy, attacking much of my best

The best husband in my life who never thinks to resign

You always say "we will over come, precious, you are mine"

I may sulk in the dark feeling all is on MY plate

But you, precious one, remind me it's never too late

Too late to give it back to God and know He has good plans

Plans of good not of evil, no matter how many times I ran

You bring out my glee

No matter what's wrong with me

You turn it around for the good to be found

The good I myself find in you is profound

May we both live life thru each others place

Both live thru changes, heartaches, all thru His Grace

Yes, you see my dark, you love my light

You bless my love, thru His love so bright

May we be ONE here on earth and in the realms Above

From beginning to end with all, Christ is filled with LOVE

With His extraordinary love and peace; my worries are few

Praising our Creator for all He does and will do

I truly praise Jesus with all my heart

I never want to grumble as I did at start

I know thru all trials, blessed by you thru Him I'll shine

You're the only one I truly desire, You thru God are only mine

So bless you in return from my soul

Bless you in return

Bless your courage

Bless your strength

Bless your work I've tried to brake

Bless your love

Bless your passion

Bless your patience

Bless your prayers of persistence

There is no one like you on this earth

And I say to you again;

As a daddy and a husband when we hurt

You thru our God are always there to mend

I will always love you Christian Siebens....always thru thick and thin!

Love,

Your moody but loving wife...

Thanks for handling this road....all my brain surgeries you gripped so tight, all my phenobarbital overdosings you helped me make it thru- so we could make it thru....thru convulsions or regular seizures you hung on...my loss of language and paralyzation (temporary) last month, you put up a fight...and can claim victory my love...as we walk thru my pain, you say you know it will go away for good....thru my families lack of love, you give me your family and support.....

I love you sweetie....

By Hetty Siebens © 10/29/12